Thursday, April 18, 2013

Dancing Daffodils


Yes, it's finally here, ladies and gentlemen. Spring. It's funny how after two days of sun and warmer weather it's so easy to forget that winter lasted weeks longer than I thought I should have, and that spring was delayed by snow in April. Now I have a lovely pinkish tint on my forehead and nose from sitting in the sun, and all the flowers are blooming, and the grass is greener than any grass I've ever seen and the sky is bluer than any sky I've ever sat under. Overnight it seems that the world has thawed and burst to life. Truly I live in a beautiful place!

Friday, April 12, 2013

Jaardag


I receive peanut M&Ms for my birthday every year. My mother, a sympathetic chocolate lover, started giving them to  me a long time ago and has kept up the tradition even as I've moved away. Somehow it's even better now that I'm not home for my birthdays.

This has been my fourth birthday away from home. The first one was very strange. Birthdays in my family aren't celebrated by inviting a bunch of people over to party, they are celebrated with a family dinner, cake & ice cream, and present opening--in that order. Presents are never opened before dinner! Between dessert and presents someone always says, "Well, I guess it's time to take out the trash," and we pretend for a moment that there aren't any presents for the birthday person. I realize now that this takes the focus of the birthday off of the gifts, and on the person, and the givers. I always felt extra good on my birthdays. It was easy to be sweet to my siblings because they were all sweet to me. There was no demanding attention and favors (i.e. the doing of my chores), they were lovingly, freely given and gratefully received.

My first birthday away from home was a very special experience. I was out late and when I got home my wonderful roommate had made a cake on which she had piped "Happy Birthday, Abby!" and left it out on the kitchen table with a bunch of flowers and her gift to me. A few days later I was taken out to dinner with a group of good friends, then we went back to someone's house and had cake and sangria that one of them had made for me. The next weekend my family visited and the birthday celebrations continued.

My first birthday out of the country was also very special. Birthdays are a big deal here in the Netherlands! When I walked into the house that morning all three girls sang three different birthday songs to me, and I was given my gifts (chocolate!) and told to open them immediately (the girls aren't big on patience).

This year is much more low-key. I didn't remind them it was my birthday until it happened to come up in conversation. In a couple weeks I'll go out to dinner with a couple with whom I've become very good friends.

I don't really have a point to this post. I suppose I've just been reflecting on how birthdays have changed for me over the years. Each year I think, "Well, it's not a big deal," but something happens and I end up feeling exceedingly loved by the people around me.

Monday, April 1, 2013

Story: A Dream


I’m experimenting with writing dreams. Here is one I wrote the other day:

I was on the train one morning, when the man sitting next to me began telling me about his dream.

He was walking through the city at night, under a big overpass bridge. Under the bridge was a group of homeless people, dressed in all sorts of crazy outfits and gathered around a metal trashcan fire. He started walking faster to avoid them, but then one of the homeless people, an old man, was walking next to him. They started talking, like it was the most natural thing in the world, all about music and books. He was saying all sorts of stuff about the importance of reading being overrated by the chauvinistic media and that view being accepted by the angry mob. It seemed perfectly reasonable to the man on the train and he invited him to his house for tea as payment for his enlightening conversation. They ended up at the White House, because for some reason the man on the train lived there. There was a big state dinner going on and all the people there were wearing tuxedos  including the women, because that was more qualitative. When the two men walked in, the dreamer could tell that everyone was wondering why he had brought along such a disintegrated old man along to a fancy dinner, but the man on the train said, “It’s OK, everyone, I invited him for tea.” At that everyone immediately began applauding and giving each other expressive looks to show how excited they were to hear from such a prominent speaker.

The speech began well enough, but turned into the homeless man presenting his dissertation exploring the similarities between soap operas and the Bible. A woman sitting next to the man on the train leaned over to him and said, “You forgot to tell him this was a government dinner, didn’t you? Not a rational one?” At that moment the after-dinner entertainment of a traveling circus streamed into the room through the big double doors. Jugglers on unicycles were followed by dancing bears, who were followed by a group of clowns in a little clown car. Through the chaos the speaker continued, merely raising his voice a little to be heard over the noise. Then the man on the train remembered that he had forgotten to go to the grocery store on the way home. “I’m sorry, everyone! You’re all going to have to leave; I just realized that I forgot to buy tea this afternoon. Please forgive the inconvenience. We’ll try again another day.” And then he woke up.

I sat and listened to the dream, laughing at all the right places, but not really sure why the man felt compelled to share it with me. When I got to my stop I politely thanked him and stepped off the train. I stopped and watched the dancing bear drink tea on the platform for a moment before leaving, and as I crossed the street everything got hazy and I woke up.

Sunday, March 31, 2013

Paasfeest

"Why do you seek the living among the dead? He is not here, but has risen." Mark 24:5-6

"O death, where is your victory? O death, where is your sting?" 1 Corinthians 15:55

Saturday, March 30, 2013

Sabbatum Sanctum

The feeling of today is two-fold. First, an intense sadness, replaying that horrible day when all the world was black, when there was no hope because the One who was supposed to save was dead. Dead... Gone... What were they supposed to do? Who would save them? Would they be perpetually stuck in their sin, separated from their Creator forever? Why did the world continue? The One who held the universe in place was gone, why did it not spin into chaos?

There is no Gospel reading for Holy Saturday in the Protestant Revised Common Lectionary. Yet Job says, "For I know that my Redeemer lives, and at the last he will stand upon the earth." And the Psalms say, "I believe that I shall look upon the goodness of the Lord in the land of the living," and "Do you work wonders for the dead? Do the departed rise up to praise you? Is your steadfast love declared in the grave?" and "Oh come, let us sing to the Lord; let us make a joyful noise to the rock of our salvation!" Romans and Hebrews tell us of the Jesus who was raised, and the Spirit who now lives in us.

This is the second feeling of today. While we re-live the day when the only true Life was dead, there is still the knowledge, underneath the surface of our minds, that He is Alive! Tomorrow the Tomb will be Empty, Death itself will work Backwards, we will forever be invited to live in God's presence, no longer will we be separated by a veil and blood. Tomorrow... There is hope, beloved, all we must do is last the night for joy, Joy, JOY comes in the morning!

Friday, March 15, 2013

Lent Day 27: The Steadfast Love of the Lord

"For He satisfies the longing soul, and the hungry soul He fills with good things."

Yes, it's still Lent. Two weeks to go!

Psalm 107
Section One: Tells the people to give thanks to God for His steadfast love. Section Two:  Tells of four different types of people, the situations from which God rescued them, and why they should praise the Lord. Section Three: A record of the way God deals with the evil (brings low) and the oppressed (exalts).

Jeremiah 23:1-8
A warning against the leaders who care for God’s people and an assurance that God Himself will be the One who shepherds them and restores them.

Romans 8:28-39
“..all things work together for the good…” God works out all things according to His Rescue Plan (Jesus Storybook Bible). Nothing can separate us from His love or tear us away from where He would have us be.

John 6:52-59
Jesus tells His listeners that they must feed on His flesh in order to live forever. Not literally of course, but figuratively. He is Spirit and we must partake in His Spirit, ingest Him, digest Him in order to be a part of Him. It’s like Aragorn’s ring, with the two snakes swallowing each other. We take part in Him as He consumes us.

I’ve been meditating recently on God’s provision, how He always provides. Last week I Skyped with a friend who is fund-raising in order to spend two months in Africa with World Harvest Missions this summer. I was trying to encourage her and was reminded of my own experience fund-raising. I thought I would never, never, never be able to raise that money, especially for the second year, but it happened. God provided in spite of my lazy bones. I was struck by this because I am currently in a place of similar dis-trust. In two months I will begin a serious job search back in the States (I’m really starting now, don’t worry, Dad!). I am not looking forward to it, and not-so-deep-down I don’t believe I will be able to get a job, or at least one I will enjoy. But thinking about fund-raising I was reminded of God’s ability to care for me, even when I doubt. This sin of distrust and disbelief in something that God has clearly demonstrated over and over and over and over again is so wrong. It’s a slap in God’s face, saying “I don’t care how much You’ve proved Yourself, I still choose to sit here and feel sorry for myself and directly contradict Your promises to me. So there (*raspberry).” How pathetic is that? But God will still provide.

“Oh, give thanks to the Lord, for He is good, for his steadfast love endures forever. Let the redeemed of the Lord say so, whom he has redeemed from trouble…” ~Psalm 107:1-2

Tuesday, March 12, 2013

The Mix-Up: A Short Story

The office drones could tell something was wrong. The very air in the two departments was popping with static electricity. John felt like he was hurrying through the deserted streets of an old western town in the moments just before the big shoot-out as he made his way to one of the other cubicles.
“Did you hear?” he asked his fellow-drone Thomas.
Thomas hadn’t heard him coming and looked up with a start.
“Gods, you scared me,” he said, breathing a sigh of relief. “Yes, I heard. Who do you think they’re going to blame?”
“We’ll be lucky if Mr. B doesn’t blow away the entire department. I heard they had already emptied the entire warehouse into the shipping containers and started distribution when the word came about the mistake. They’re not going to be able to re-call it all; some of it has already slipped through the cracks.”
Thomas was not a brave man and he shuddered. “Mr. B was so elated at the late order. And he never gets excited about anything.”
In Miss P’s department the crisis was no less sensational, but the staff tended to follow the example of their department head and blame Mr. B. The talk was loud and emotional, rather than hushed and furtive.
“He did it on purpose, hoping they wouldn’t notice the mistake and he would get all the glory,” Mary M said to Mary K.
“I believe it,” replied Mary K, “All that snow and wind on all those poor people who had already packed up their heavy coats. Some of the farmers had already sheared their sheep. Can you imagine?”
“This has happened before,” chimed in Sarah. “You would think Mr. B would be more careful.”
“You would think,” said Mary M. “But you know how impetuous and hasty he is.”
The three ladies all nodded wisely. They knew. Mary M glanced at the huge, glassed in office at the end of the room.
“I just feel sorry for Miss P,” she said sympathetically, glad that she was the first to bring it up. “She does so look forward to this time of the year. She already had the shipping order ready and the first phase almost finished. Now it will all have to be pushed back for another three weeks!”
“I was on the snowdrop committee,” said Sarah, feeling the need to squelch Mary M’s self-important manner. “They turned out so beautifully this year. It’s a shame they had to be caught in all this.”
In her office Miss P sat brooding at her desk when her secretary’s voice came over the intercom.
“Miss P? Mr. B on the phone for you.”
Still staring straight ahead of her Miss P pressed a button on the phone and replied, “Put him through.”
She waited for the phone to ring twice before she picked it up.
“Boreas.”
Her tone was expressionless, belying her anger.
“What in the name of Zeus is wrong with you, woman?” Mr. B’s voice roared through the phone. Miss P winced and pulled the phone quickly away from her ear, “Didn’t you get the scheduling memo?”
“I could ask the same of you,” Miss P replied as coldly as she could. “All the signs were in my favor: the groundhog, the sun, the rain… Your time was up and you knew it.”
“Meddling woman,” Mr. B ranted, “Not even checking to make sure it was your turn before sending your little weeds pushing up through the dirt. The schedule clearly stated that I had one more go before you were let loose. You couldn’t even let me have that, could you? It’s not enough that the public adores you; you have to encroach on my duly allotted time as well. Well, I’ve had enough. I tell you this, Miss Persephone, if I don’t get an apology in the next week I’ll send Jack to visit every flower you’ve grown this year.”
“Apologize!” Miss P sniffed scornfully, “I should be demanding an apology from you, and demand one on behalf of all the people down there who you’ve caught unawares. They were all ready for Spring when your little flurries escaped the shipping containers and you had to go blowing freezing cold air through every crack in every house.”
Mr. B let out a blustery howl and slammed down the phone.
He was rampaging in his office when there came a timid knock on the door.
“What is it?” he roared, turning fiercely on the interrupter. His nervous assistant crept in and cleared his throat uncomfortably.
“Spit it out, man!” Mr. B growled. The top three pages from a stack of paper on the desk  fluttered to the ground seemingly of their own accord.
“Sir, I have this, I found it, I mean, it just got here last night after you had left, I mean, here.”
He handed Mr. B a sealed note and hurried from the room, closing the door behind him and getting as far away from the office door as he could.
Mr. B opened the note, which was dated a week previous, and read therein:
Boreas,
Your last three weeks have been cancelled. Please make sure to collect any loose snow and store according to your usual efficient method. Many thanks for such a fabulous winter.
Sincerely,
Management